My First Blog Entry

I just spent way too much time trying to pick a font (out of 8). This is why I haven't started a blog sooner. I am obsessive. I make too many lists and many times I will list things that I have already done, such as "drink a glass of water" just so I can cross it off the list. Perhaps it is because, as the mother of a 2-year-old, I have little time to get things accomplished and I believe it is also one small way I can exercise some control over my life.

I cannot seem to get the song "Movin' Right Along", by Kermit and Fozzie, out of my head. We listen to it over and over and over again around here. I feel happy that Levi likes songs like that, yet he also likes the most annoying version of ABCs by Dora the Explorer. I just want to run for the hills when I hear that voice. Speaking of happy, Levi has been having a hard time this past weekend. He did not sleep for 2 days and the weekend was one giant meltdown. Last night, he slept through the night and I asked him if he was happy today. He said to me, "Mama, home makes me happy" and it made me immediately think about him moving out when he is older. I have a tendency to just jump from A to Z without stopping in the middle.

I think that is one reason that writing might be a good idea for me. I forget to reflect on the little things and enjoy being in the moment.

The organic pest guy came today. He is one of those people that make me feel like a bumbling idiot. I felt like doing a song and dance to distract him from our gross kitchen and the fact that we have German Roaches. When he saw one of them he actually said "Oh, fuck" and then apologized. So, in my A to Z world, I started thinking that we were all diseased and had a major infestation and would have to move out of our house. As it turns out, he just needed to go get some different stuff out of the truck. He also made me feel bad because it took us 5 months to pay last time. He said that we aren't on the black list yet, so I asked if we are on the brown list. I actually got a smile out of him! What a relief.

I've been working like crazy on my new shirts. I hope to get some pics up soon, so my family in VA and Mark's family in WI can see what I've been up to lately.

I thought about my father today, as I was walking Levi home from school. If I were to follow his pattern, I would be divorcing Mark and leaving Levi right about now. Then again, I'd also be 20ish and a man. It made me wonder about a mother's bond over a father's bond. And, honestly, I feel like Mark and I have an equally strong bond with Levi. It is something I want to ask Mark about before I forget.

Oh, I guess I can add it to my list of things to do!

On that note, it is past my bedtime. I think I like blogging.

Night night!